My Fiance is in Love with My Little The Third Time and Then – Chapter 2

Do you inform about the tragedy?

No, it does not have any meaning. Because bad things has already happened.

Seeing me that said so, the crow opened his eyes, it seemed to be laughing slowly.

The crow’s beak, that has no way to express its emotions, seemed to be doing so, was because the black bird here might be an illusion.

“Is that your own child that you’re holding?”

Though it might not see it, the crow was asking me so.

I asked the question by tilting my head why do you know it, it said,

“Of course I know, ’cause I’ve been looking at you.” while smiling.

“I’ve been looking at you who’s amusing the baby.”

“… you have?”

“I think you love it?”

“… Yes, I do, I … really do.”

Although it started with ill‐omened words, we had a comfortable conversation.

If you move your line of sight from the crow that was in dark, my pale white arms emerge drawing circles in front of my heart.

I try feel the weight of my child on my arms, I realize that it is an illusion because I can’t see the face of the baby that I’m holding.

The outlines of all the things in the dark room are vague, I can’t see what’s in there clearly.

Therefore I can’t see the face of the child in my arms, I just try to believe so that I have it.

Absolutely, I know it’s pretty.

Because it’s mine.

Because I had it with him.

But it has no face, the baby in my arms has no face.

I could not even imagine the face, that I could have seen it with.

“What in the world did you come here for? There is nothing here.”

I asked so, holding the illusion that is more darker than darkness, the crow gave a chuckle while flying around the room. It laughed as if it was funny even though it’s a bird.

“Why will you not think I’m here, simply because it’s empty?”

It landed softly on a mirror stand and rotated its head then inclined it adorably.

“What do you mean?”

“Anyway, I guess I’m bored!”

The crow spread its big wings, then rotated himself once. At that moment I saw it, “Nyaa”
There was a black cat on the dresser.
It trembled in order to shake something off, after
gazing at me with observing eyes,
“….oh, don’t you like it?” It said.

Usually I think this may kill women, it brought its head down, fixing its long beard with its forepaws.

“I feel you are pretty but…”

I said I didn’t like it so much, it said

“Oh really? Sorry for this…”

It laughed loudly as if it did not care about it at all.

While I was gazing blankly at it, the black cat jumped down from the dresser slowly.

“Now then princess, why are you enclosed in this place?”

“…. I’m not a princess.”

“Well, well… I mean you are pretty as well as a
princess.”

“…. I’m not even pretty.”

“Oh…. you aren’t? Hummm… It’s trouble, trouble, trouble.”
The crow is fluttering on the floor while tilting and nodding it’s head.

It’s sad that it’s not flying even though it has wings.

“Well, it’s not important. And may I ask you the reason why you are a place like this?”

Finally, the crow that jumped as high as it could with it’s legs, landed on the bed where I was sitting down.

“Even though you say ‘a place like this’, it’s my room.”

“Yes, I know.”

Although it shows no expressions, I wondered why
it looks its face is wrapped in joy.

“What I want to know is the reason why a princess like you is here, a place like this.”

“So, what do you mean ‘a place like this’….? This room is not so bad?”

“…. pardon? are you serious?”

“…. ?”

Tilting it’s head, the crow was looking around rapidly.

“Try looking carefully at that window, princess.”

I turned my head to the direction navigated by the
yellow eyes, the curtained window.

But there was only the light blue curtains, that was usually there.

“Hey, this is.”

Fluttering in the air and landing by the window, the crow held
the curtain in it’s beak and opened it cleverly. The windowpane which appeared in the gap clearly depicted the dark night.

“….. These are iron bars, aren’t they?”

Gazing at them with that question, I realized the shadows of iron bars on the glasses. That, they must be the iron bars outside of the windows.

“Why are you trapped in a room like prison?”

The small head of the crow turned to me again.

“…. you called yourself ‘crow’?”

“What? Yeah I did.”

“I thought you have entered through the window. How would’ve you?”

“…. Oh, that’s what you are
concerned about now?”

When I said that ’cause you knew there were iron bars there, the crow knitted its brows which could not be.

[Tln- it is not possible for crows to knit eyebrows, you know why]

“Though I said so, I think you are broken somewhere?”

It sighed like a human, and chuckled from the back of his throat.

“…. I like you, I do. Yes, nice.
You are very nice.”

So, may I help you?

The voice like that of a boy
changed to that of an adult man.

It was low and sweet, it seemed like I will be sucked in if I did
not pay caution.

“What will you help me with?”

“Anything about you.”

“…. Anything?”

“If you wish of killing somebody, I will do it. It’s easy for me.”

Nonsense, just nonsense.
Though I realize so, it makes me want to answer
“Yes.”
As I became silent unconsciously,

“Oh, I thought you were surely pure, princess, but I was wrong.”

The crow said so, not being disappointed but appeared pleased at something.

“…. you are kidding with me, aren’t you?”

“Well, I don’t know. I will help you with pleasure if you really expect it.”

And as I thought I heard the answer, the black bird popped unexpectedly.

I closed my eyes to avoid black feathers flying around me, with that,

“…… Hehehe”, someone was whispering.

I opened my eyes slightly, I saw a shadow of man behind floating feathers.

He is not tall but not short neither, if I have to say , he is slender. But does not look weak.

The black robe he was wearing might cover his figure well.

It was as if i was seeing a magic trick, I just traced the shape of the man’s body dully.

Then he tilted his head little inside the hood that he was wearing lightly, and shrugging both shoulders as poking fun at me, he smiled little and said

“You not surprised?”

“Allow me to introduce myself again, I’m crow, dear princess… I have no family name.”

I hope you understand, the white smiling face was supplely beautiful.

His appearance was illuminated by the dazzling moonlight that came from the other side of the window.

If I glace at his dazzling figure unintentionally, he would deepen his smile more.

“Now, what is there something troubling you?”

The stretched thin fingers touched my cheek.

The hand without temperature.

Like a dead being.

Seeing that I was trembling unconsciously, he laughed with
satisfaction.

“The baby in your arms?”

“The iron bars covering that window?”

“Or…is it something that even I cannot predict?”

The hair that was darker than Soleil-sama’s swayed lightly, eyes darker than the hair were gazing at me.

I, reflected on those eyes, opened both my eyes widely and was looking like fool.

“Your eyes are of different color when you are a bird.”

I nodded involuntarily, the man laughed loudly as if in great pleasure.

“…. Now princess, May I help you?”

The man, no, the crow that was closing on to me, whispered at distance I could feel it’s breathing.

Seducing words were mixed in his quiet voice.

“What is the purpose of you?”

“I’m surprised that you ask me such thing now. I thought I said it to you.”

Even the air it breathed out was chill and cold.

In spite of myself getting back, the crow smiled more deeply just this moment and said

“I am very bored… !”

“I am entirely bored of my tedious life.”

“So you may ask me for help. I’ll especially do it for free.”

“Do you like it? Iria ”

—- That was the first encounter with him.

Strictly speaking, he has entered my room before that day, so it was not the first time we met.

This was the first time he appeared in his original form.

It was the existence that I had not met in both of my past lives.

I don’t know if they are dreams or illusions.

It’s clearly not a normal situation at this point where I can hold a normal conversation with an animal in daily basis.

So the third time I doubted his existence until the very end.

But while I repeated my lives, I came to know it.

—- He certainly existed there.

He was surely there and looking at me.

“Are you surely ok with it, princess?”

I heard a small voice while looking at the history books in the library of mansion. In retrospect my escort stood there with his creased eyebrows.

Reflecting the light from the window, the golden hair was shining slightly.

When I narrow down my gaze, he changed standing potion in a casual manner.

Really clever man.

I closed the book and looking at the guard I said inclining my head to the side,

“What do you mean by that?”

“Monsiour Soleil visited … Sylvia-sama today.”

It seemed he couldn’t say the words “….in the mansion”, he ceased to talk and looked down.

“I know that. I saw him a little while ago.”

Yes. I’ve exactly seen Soleil-sama hesitating in front of the Sylvia’s room before I came to this library.

The man, who had never shown me hesitation with something, could not decided whether to enter or not to her room, looking around for nothing.

It was funny that Silvia’s maid showed a face that did not express how she felt about him.

Visiting her sister without greeting his fiancé. I envy my sister even I’m amazed by it.

I’m crazy because I feel like that. There is no doubt that something inside me is broken.

Thinking so, I could say nothing to him, even though he was just in front of me.

“So, I’m asking you that you are OK with this situation.”

It was calm but also included his irritation.

I think it’s unusual for him.

“It’s bad, absolutely bad.”

“I can’t understand why are you reading a book in such a place.”

“… ‘such as a book’, is a bad way to express it.”

smiling wryly, he bowed suddenly with honesty saying ‘sorry for this’ though he don’t feel it.

With his head down, I heard him speaking with frustration,

“Are you really happy with this situation?”

“…. I think it’s not good.”

“You think so, then…. !”

The guard looked up with the face bouncing, twisted it and was about to cry now.

It’s strange. I was supposed to be the one crying even though my tears have withered.

“Listen Al ”

“…. Yes”

“Have you seen the windows of my room?”

“…. well, Yes.”

“The person who attached the iron bars is my father.”

“…… ”

“I think of course you know it.”

After the day, when I caused that great blunder that might be called madness, I couldn’t hide myself from my parents even though I’ve been acting normally.

……In fact their concern was right. Even I can not believe myself.

So I felt comfort when my father attached the iron bars not to allow me jump from the window.
Although they make me think of the jail where I was once closed in, I prefer that they are there.

“But you are not a person who will commit suicide.”

“Oh It’s… not sure. I don’t know.”

“Even though you think you are, you are not.”

He said so with awful assurance, I could not but laugh.

“…. Oujosama”

“Hehe, no, nothing. Sorry. Al, you are good person”

“…….”

Though I was stared at by Al with a stupid face, I realized that the man never had any bad feeling in his eyes.

“…. My father didn’t worry about the possibility of my suicide.”

“…. what do you mean?”

“He did it so to not let me escape by jumping down from the window for the worst.”

“…. Tell me what do you mean ….?”

“It’s exactly what I mean.”

Al stopped talking with curious face, seemed to be thinking something.

“Listen Al. It’s normal affair for a person who is noble, especially woman, that she will get married for political tactics. It’s the normal thing for noble families.”

“…. But,”

“Every women gets married with same thought. I’m not the only one, other families are same. That
is the way we fix it.”

“…. Is there something you need to change?”

Suddenly as if thinking something ,Al happened to go down his knees, looked me up my face who was sitting on a chair.

“You should not put up with something you find difficult. I
know that Oujosama spent a long time preparing for her marriage with Soleil-sama. I think you are absolutely entitled to say what you
wanna do.”

He had a pair of gentle eyes. I was moved by his honest words. But I know what will be waiting after I express what I wanna clearly say. Though whatever I say or do Soleil-sama’s heart will stay with my sister. I know it.

“——- Madam, you have been doing that, you have been controlling and talking harshly to the ladies who were trying to come closer to Soleil-sama.”

It seems he did not think that it was the right way. But now that this situation is not clearly normal. He shrunk his brows with the color of bepuzzlement.

“Why has it changed?”

Yeah. I’ve been doing do until that tea party. I’ve restricted anyone who’s rank was higher or lower
than me, using the status being a fiancé of him.

…..That’s why I’ve failed.

“….I can’t go the same way as ever, because it’s Soleil-sama who
is closing on.(to my sister)

In this my life, Soleil is visiting to my sister without minding of people’s gaze.

I can’t believe that in previous two lives that they loved each other while keeping our relationship hidden.

Now, they don’t have even some sort of guilty feeling toward even looking at each other.

I feel that acquaintances including my parent let them meet repeatedly.

Is it something like a distortion?

In my previous life, it seemed to trace back to the first one.

In this life time, Soleil and Silvia acted like different persons.

—–No, they are entirely different persons?

I wonder if it is a entirely different world.

……then why,

If so why I am the way I am.

I was thinking of it looking at the clear eyes of Al.

Is this man really my guard who I know?

I can’t even recognize that now.

The life until that tea party is almost same as my first one especially, concerning at least me.

Because of it, I’m here in love with Soleil-sama.

I fell into love with him at the moment I met, the little words and glances at him strengthen my
love for him.

I thought repeatedly that if I had memories from the beginning, I might not have loved Soleil-sama.

Even if I happened to fall into love with him, I could’ve spent my life keeping moderate distance from
Soleil-sama and Silvia so that I could leave and not make that feeling stronger.

I wonder if I could do that.

And in the future.

It might have possible to love someone other than Soleil-sama.

Although I might be hurt by the love, I could make my family soon,

We could be couple that love
and be loved by each other.

The thought like that passed through my mind.

But I love him repeatedly though I would be hurt by it. It’s right. For I am absolutely I am, I can’t stop myself to love Soleil-sama.

Originally I met, I am learning about my destiny.

And, until I joined the two at that tea party, I trusted that my love will be rewarded.

—- If my memories came back sooner I could have thrown away this feeling?

No, it’s impossible.

Because I’m a person who remembers everything. I’m a person who cannot forget myself who loved him.

There are memories as much as I live.

The memories I can never forget are piling on this my soul.

What I was in previous life, also the previous one before that, and now too, I can’t forget this feeling though this time even though it was in the past.

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